Mobility vs Motility


My physiotherapist shook me

Pivotal to healing was the when my physiotherapist laid me down on my back and began gently shaking me side to side so she could visually see where the tissues are most sticky to better understand my internal lines of tension.

Understanding that healing is not only about the ability to move, but also how well this motion happens.

I stopped caring about the things I could and could not do with my body: I couldn’t stand up straight, and I couldn’t lie down and have my left ribs touch the surface beneath me. My tongue has felt like its being cut off on the left side for so many years I don’t remember what it feels like to be free of this tension.

In yoga we learn about leaning into the tension and sending thoughts to relax the areas where we feel the most discomfort. Let it go, relax it. There is also a phrase often used “to feel equal in all body parts”.

I began to think of the body as a 3 dimensional thing because of physiotherapy and my foyer into watching the Aclands anatomy dissection videos. Some cranial nerves go down the neck and back up it into the face.

After a lot of thought and sensation through my experience with how NCR affecting me, I discovered that I could wiggle my nose and mouth to affect all my head parts. I stopped seeing anything in the body as alone. Nothing is alone. Everything is connected through the fascia. I realized I could heal my whacked out cranium…

But I felt like a washed out spider with a broken web.

Why oh why did I climb up that water spout!

But hey, the sun is out.

Today is solstice.

SOUL-stice: Lettuce heal!